their i sat, broken hearted

[7-25-08 / 813pm]


i discovered my first
grey hair today

i was looking in the mirror
after trying to take a shit

i say trying because
i went to shit and only
farted.

i had an insight when
i saw this grey hair

it made me think that
as you grow old

it happens to a part of you
that is not really a part of the
real you.

meaning as you grow old
your eternal self, the real you
feels as it always did

not old, not young
not like a teenager
not like an adult
not like a senior
but just like it always
has.

and as you see yourself
grow old
it appears this process is
happening to a you that is
not truely you.

and so its a disconcerting feeling.

your shocked to find that this
fake you suddenly has hair
around its genitals.

your schocked to find that this
fake you suddenly has a hairy
chest.

your shocked to find that this
fake you suddenly has busshy
eyebrows.

your shocked to find this
fake you now has a grey hair.

and finally you will be shocked when
you may ask yourself:
who is this old person starring
back at me.

these are the insights that occured
to me as an artistic uhpiffaknee
today
when
i
discovered
my
first
grey
hair